Linda…I will never leave you, or forsake you…Hebrews
13:5
In the years of being a
Christian, this scripture has buoyed and strengthened me.
Even though it has comforted
me, I had often wondered…why this one in particular?
A pervasive abandoned
feeling affected me from a very early age. A while ago, I was given first hand information
of why I felt so utterly alone, growing up.
Before that, it had been
puzzling to me, because I not only grew up in a large family, but we lived in a
4 tenement house, which housed 3 more families of relatives. Up to 22 people
lived in this tenement, at any one given time. It was wall to wall people. Each
apartment had 4 rooms. Everyone was so familiar with one another that people
walked in and out of each other’s apartment, without knocking. I remember only
1 time, that I was totally alone in that house
.
Everyone in the entire house was
gone for the day. It was so quiet and unusual, that, when it finally dawned on
me, I felt weird.
Here I was surrounded by
many people, and yet it was not my experience to feel part of one big happy
family. Being embraced, seemed elusive to me. But, why? I wondered. ... It was
mysterious.
What amazes me now, is that
God saw my plight. God knew the very depth of my being. He knew what portion of
His word would comfort me the most. There are so many other scriptures that I
love and could “fit the bill” as a source of comfort and encouragement. But He
chose THIS one.
Abandon ( synonyms) = Discard…throw
away…disregard…withdraw…abandon…maroon.
Abandon (antonyms) =
Redeem…rescue…save…retain…harbor…hold…reclaim
Here I am, saved for 33 plus
years. The Lord continues to reveal to me just how intimately He knew me then
and how utterly close He is to me now.
Does that make me want to
dance a little and rejoice about being so loved and so known? You betcha’! And
does it thrill me that I can tell another person, the Good News? They too,
may be one who has no clue as to God’s love and care for them.
The other day, I had just the chance to do that. I was in McDonald’s. (It seems like the Lord
has often chosen, either McDonalds or the Library, for me to approach people
and say something encouraging to them. *grin*)
I was working on my greeting
cards. Across the aisle, sat a young businessman. My guess is that he was around
40 years old. He was working on his computer. As I sat there, I felt compassion
for him. I had thought of my husband and when he worked in corporate America.
He had a high pressure job and was so diligent to provide for our family. I
imagined that this guy might be doing the same.
We did not acknowledge one another. I left about ½ hour later.
Walking away, I had the slightest urge to
talk to him about the Lord. Honestly, the prompting of the Holy Spirit was so
subtle. It usually is. However, I continued to walk toward the exit, because I
“reasoned” “why would this young, fairly decent dressed, guy want to hear from
a woman, who could technically be his mother?” And besides, I was not “dressed
the part” to be giving forth any Godly words.
So, I just pushed the Voice
of God out of the recesses of my mind. My excuses made perfect sense to me. I
even thought “Well if I missed this opportunity…there will always be the next
time”
I got no further than the exit, when the prompting seemed stronger. In a
split second I knew 2 things. One was, I had a choice. The other was that God
was not going to reject me if I decided not to say anything.. But what tipped the
scales to going back, was the realization of how much I love the Lord, and knew
it was HE who was asking this of me.
I turned around and approached the man’s
table. He seemed to shoot me a look of “Who ARE YOU? And why are you invading
my space?” But having already committed myself, I initially said something
about how I pray and God sometimes points out people to me, who He wants to encourage.
“I just believe that the Lord wants you to know that He cares about you and
your life”. Then turning to leave,
I said “Bless you
To be honest, I was like “whew! Now that is over!”
As I started to walk away, the
man said “Thank you!”
What has stayed with me too,
is that as I got closer to the door, I heard him call out “Thank you”…3 more
times, as the truth of God sunk in.
God chose to have an
encounter with a man that day, amidst the Happy Meals and Milkshakes…amazing!
1 comment:
I want to thank you too Linda. What a blessing to hear a story of obedience and encouragement. I could certainly do a better job listening to God's prompts in these situations.
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