Thursday, August 26, 2010

How do I follow

The truth that my life only works when I remain connected to God and let Him do the work thought me, is one that I have to come back to periodically. That's what makes this post of mine as relevant today as it was when I posted it back in May 2008:

How do I follow?

This morning my heart was pierced anew as I read God's word. These specific words of Jesus that are recorded in the gospel always get to me:

"Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You're not in the driver's seat; I am. Don't run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I'll show you how. Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to saving yourself, your true self. What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you? What could you ever trade your soul for?"

Mark 8:34B-37 (The Message)

These words get to me because I so miserably fail. I have this push inside of me to be in charge, I tend to follow my culture and want to get into all kinds of self-help ventures and think I can control my world. But the truth is that I have no real control; it's God who is in control of the universe. If I take the time and examine my life and my motives I spend entirely too much time pursuing things and lifestyles that bring me comfort and ease; that easier and softer way. I most definitely run from suffering or at least go out of my way to avoid it. I fill up my time with activities to help me avoid that natural anguish of the human condition.

But God shows me a different way. To be candid, when I read these words a part of me feel so lost - how can I do this? I guess the point is that I can't do it. I'm encouraged as I re read the passage and see that Jesus is coaxing me to follow Him and He'll show me how. So how do I follow Him? This is the question I bring to God in prayer this morning.

I'm so grateful that it's not my ability that I have to depend on, but it's God and His character. So I can have faith that He will show me how to follow Him and live my life His way.

What are some ways that God's shown you to follow Him?


David said...

It is not easy to comprehend the death of self and the relese of the new creature in Christ.

We have been conditioned to fix it, and it is not working for lots of folks. It is one of the resons that I relly like to freedom ministries at our church; they rely on God to fix us, not us.

Self-help is no help indeed. That says it all.

Michelle said...

I'm grateful, too, that it is His grace and not my ability! I have a psych degree and worked in behavioral therapy...self-help was my middle name.

I find so much more joy in denying self though! I believe it is when we are serving others and denying self we receive the most joy from God.

I like what David said, "self-help is no help."