Beware, Joyce is going to get real again. Last year I took the Strength Finders test. My number one strength was "ideation." I wouldn't have guessed that was my strength but when I thought about it more, I thought yep, that's me. Throughout my life, I've had lots of good ideas. I mean really great ideas, even money making ideas. Many years ago when I lived in Hallsville MO they had no daycare. I wanted to rent the other side of the duplex we lived in and start a daycare. My husband yawned, my mother scoffed. I persisted but as with many things, alone I eventually gave up. Three months later a woman opened one down the street. She did well. On top of that my mother praised her since she knew her from church. I kept thinking, that could have been me.
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Then there was the church. God told me to start a church. I did. Twice. The spirit of the Lord showed up big time one morning. The worship leader had a vision. He saw us all in the start gate of a race. He said that I was on a horse. I had been waiting a very long time. I was dying to get out of the gate. He said that gate was opening. Yippie Skippy Glory Hallelujah - within two months I found out I was going to South Dakota. Not exactly the gate opening I had in mind. Not exactly a place I flourished. But oh the things I learned in the process.
Okay, I don't want this to be a downer. I suppose this has sort of been Joyce's morning lament. I don't want this to be so real that you think I have no faith. I do have faith. I do have hope. I have so much hope and faith that at an age when most people are planning or experiencing retirement, I'm working on a doctoral degree. The high school drop out welfare mom who no one thought was worth anything, is now a doctoral student. I'm plugging away with a research study on the use of computer mediated social networking (Facebook) for the purpose of Christian community. That's what God has led me to do. That's what I'm doing. I hope it doesn't end up like all my other good ideas. I hope it benefits the Kingdom. But one thing I've learned, results do not mean success or failure. Success is all about obedience and the process of becoming like Jesus.
A good 'real' post Joyce until the last line...which makes it great.
Thanks for sharing.
Gotta agree with your conclusion that results do not equal success; that success is really is about obedience.
There's so many things in my life where I've stepped out in what I thought/still think was obedience to God and did not have what would look like success. But I really believe that, this side of heaven we won't know the why of everything.
FYI - I've always found the fact that you were once a welfare mom and now are a doctoral student a rather inspiring account.
You are a benefit to the Kingdom, I have seen it!
I love the last line! Sums up the whole thing beautifully!
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