I've had a lot of turmoil in my life. I have had a lot of times when it seemed the whole world was coming crashing down on me. The first time I used this Psalm as medicine was in Hannibal Missouri. I've written some about Hannibal on my blog (you can read the beginning of that series on my blog here)- but I've shared with only a few select people the true horrors of Hannibal. There were destructive people in our lives that I still have a hard time forgiving. There were days I thought my family would disintegrate. There were days I thought I'd be alone raising six children. There were days I despaired for the well being of our youngest child. All I can say is however horrible you think it was, it was worse.
During that time, every night I'd get out my Bible and read Psalm 70 aloud. Every night I'd declare "May those who say to me AHA-AHA turn back because of shame." And with tears streaming down my face I'd cry out to God - Come Quickly!... Do not delay.
In 1997 I returned to this passage for another year long daily recitation and declaration of my needs. False accusations, a career crumbling, more family issues that most people deal with in a life time within a few short months - death, fire, illness, etc. all while evil people plotted my ruin because I prayed every day. Sounds dramatic? It's true. All I knew to do is come back to Psalm 70. May those who say to me AHA-AHA...
God didn't seem to come fast enough during these two crisis periods of my life, but He did come... and He delivered me. Those who sought my ruin are a distance (although painful) memory. They didn't win. God did.
