I've had a lot of turmoil in my life. I have had a lot of times when it seemed the whole world was coming crashing down on me. The first time I used this Psalm as medicine was in Hannibal Missouri. I've written some about Hannibal on my blog (you can read the beginning of that series on my blog here)- but I've shared with only a few select people the true horrors of Hannibal. There were destructive people in our lives that I still have a hard time forgiving. There were days I thought my family would disintegrate. There were days I thought I'd be alone raising six children. There were days I despaired for the well being of our youngest child. All I can say is however horrible you think it was, it was worse.
During that time, every night I'd get out my Bible and read Psalm 70 aloud. Every night I'd declare "May those who say to me AHA-AHA turn back because of shame." And with tears streaming down my face I'd cry out to God - Come Quickly!... Do not delay.
In 1997 I returned to this passage for another year long daily recitation and declaration of my needs. False accusations, a career crumbling, more family issues that most people deal with in a life time within a few short months - death, fire, illness, etc. all while evil people plotted my ruin because I prayed every day. Sounds dramatic? It's true. All I knew to do is come back to Psalm 70. May those who say to me AHA-AHA...
God didn't seem to come fast enough during these two crisis periods of my life, but He did come... and He delivered me. Those who sought my ruin are a distance (although painful) memory. They didn't win. God did.
3 comments:
Joyce...
As I read your blog, I thought "but God".
It also makes me think of the saying that "you shouldn't judge a person until you have walked in their shoes." Perhaps we don't judge per se, maybe we just don't have any comprehension. That's why I like testimonies. Not to hear the "stuff", but to hear how God reigned.
You have had some very painful legs of your journey,
I thank God that He did "get the last word"
Lin
PS Where did you get your graphic? I love it!
Sorry you had to go through such a rough time in Hannibal. Because I love Psalm 40, I thought you had the Psalm # wrong--turns out they are very similar in content! I had a difficult experience a few years ago with a person who wanted to slay me with "Aha!" It took two years for me to be free of the pain of that, but forgiveness had to come first. I am not preaching at you, just giving you my process. Blessings and peace to you, Joyce. Thank you for your honest sharing.
Kerry, I never even thought about you preaching to me with your comment until you said that you weren't! Been down that road a long, long, long time ago.
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